I won’t be writing anymore.

I might come back some day, who knows.

I wish you all a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year.

It’s so hard…

For Jo Kien.

Above, product of the past months. It will all be over tomorrow… not really. A long, long journey lies ahead.

I have  been away, breathing.  Will return soon.

I have been unhappy.
The kind that new shoes won’t help alleviate.

On hiatus.
Don’t worry.
You know I’m not stupid enough to disappear.

Life. Ahh life. Throw me what you’ve got. You’ve got me where you want me to be. On the brink of conceding. Cliff edged.

You used to be so simple. But you evolved like everyone else.

The same old stories have come to haunt me again. Emotional maelstrom. Drifting of to sleep. Waking up as if nothing happened. Because technically it is true. Nothing happened and nothing will happened. Same old, same old.

Tonight had a plan. I had a plan. The plan was to do something productively fun that I want to do and then dedicate the rest of whatever is left of my life to write up a kick ass thesis. But why of course, plans falter too. In more ways than one.

I’m tired.

Again, I am surrounded by rubble.

Again,  I carved through promising dense forests to find a desert.

Again and again and again.

I was never really the kind of girl who appreciated things like scented candles and body baths but having worked like a dog for the past month has lead my body and senses to truly welcome these what I call “unnecessary” indulgence. Then again, tell me, what sort of indulgence was ever necessary?

Following the month of my birthday, I treated myself to a bath package from The Body Shop. It perks me up to wake up to the smell of sweet mango nectar and to sleep after being lathered with pink grapefruit body butter. Also I picked up a trio of dessert-smelling candles from Ikea. Chocolate-scented candles!

Uploaded are a couple of pics to spice up this blog a little. I’ve recently attended a ball on a cruise ship. I wish I took more single shots. As usual, more pictures on facebook. Stinchan, get facebook please! I don’t want to upload everything just for you.

I’m flying to Sydney in omfg 4 hours!!! Need to pack! Night of Fantasia orchestra!!!

p/s To all those worried, I’m really trying to enjoy myself

I am an antelope.

I have a confession. I have been shopping. Alot. (And eating alot too! – but this is good!) Spent enough to make me guilty till the end of the year. I wish I can work but honours is taking its toll and I’m clocking in close to 8 hours a day in the lab.

For the entire past week I’ve been awake by 9am and practically stayed about only 8 hours at home over the weekend – which was obviously spent on sleeping. I have even requested to enter the lab on a Sunday to work. Like a nerd says my lab manager. I’m so busy and tired I don’t even know when I can celebrate my birthday and haven’t made any plans which is pretty rare for me.

I might just celebrate it in October or November or December since Oct and Nov will be dedicated to my major thesis. Thesis writing is scary shit. I don’t look forward to it at all .

Random note of the day: Watched Pelham 123 and thought it was pretty sweet.

Annnd a little birthday shout out to Pui Yi – Happy Birthday!!!